I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone

The best way to describe what I’ve learned so far this year:

What I have:

“I have my disappointment and confusion, and he has whatever it is that he has. He acts like nothing happened, and I act like nothing happened. We both hold on to that delicate lie” (Levithan, David. Love is the Higher Law. 54).

What I want:

“It’s that thing when you’re with someone, and you love them and they know it, and they love you and you know it… but it’s a party, and you’re both talking to other people, and you’re laughing and shining.. and you look across the room and catch each other’s eyes… but– but not because you’re possessive, or it’s precisely sexual.. but because.. that is your person in this life. And it’s funny and sad, but only because this life will end, and it’s this secret world that exists right there in public, unnoticed, that no one else knows about. It’s sort of like how they say that other dimensions exist all around us, but we don’t have the ability to perceive them. That’s– That’s what I want out of a relationship. Or just life, I guess” (Greta Gerwig in Frances Ha).

What I’m going to do regardless of how I feel:

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